I'm so sorry - I've fallen behind in comments. That happens sometimes with me. I'll brb! I've been spending a lot of time talking with Ashley, and it's very nice. We've changed, and mainly gotten better. I think we kinda like each other ... Here's the song that we both loved at the very "end" of things, last year. And here it came along again last night. Ashley played it, and it made me... well... here it is... This Year's Love - David Gray This years love had better last Heaven knows it's high time And I've been waiting on my own too long But when you hold me like you do It feels so right oh now I start to forget How my heart gets torn When that hurt gets thrown Feeling like you can't go on Turning circles when time again It cuts like a knife oh now If you love me got to know for sure Cos it takes something more this time Than sweet sweet lies Before I open up my arms and fall Losing all control Every dream inside my soul And when you kiss me On that midnight street Sweep me off my feet Singing ain't this life so sweet This years love had better last This years love had better last So whose to worry If our hearts get torn When that hurt gets thrown Don't you know this life goes on And won't you kiss me On that midnight street Sweep me off my feet Singing ain't this life so sweet This years love had better last This years love had better last This years love had better last This years love had better last If you've never heard it, please listen to it some time - k? Cuz then you'll find my heart there. A nice night again again this last night. But the night also brang three specters of death: - Ashley spoke of her dog who died around March - very sad. - A close relative had an odd night which rather frightened me, but she is OK now. - A dear LJ friend is dying of cancer. Ashley and I think of a future, in sweet and caring baby steps.