where hypotheses come to die (madman101) wrote,
where hypotheses come to die

'Personal responsibility'.

I had a micronap, and then woke up w/ another manifestation of my illness, won't go into.  The point is, I keep getting knocked down over and over again, leaving little time left to get anything done.

I took care of palstics today, reducing them to three bags ready to go.  A little time on computer - but, once again, it became insanly slow.  So, I rebooted, and once again it didn't restore my session.  Had to again regroup via History.  This is happening more and more, takign up more and more time.

I need to figure out how to move; I need to pack; I need to move; I need to write my doctor; I need to write other letters; I need to get a new green card; etc., etc., etc.  NO TIME.

My dog has had a problem with ear mites.  I tried treating it but it keeps coming back.  It's only one ear.  He keeps shaking his head and fur, which is annoying.  Today, outside, I noticed that ear was slightly flopped down.  Normally, Akita ears are perked to a strong point.  So, i sat down, and checked it out.  I felt a lump the size of an egg yolk.

It has happened before, that he gets a serious issue precisely at a time I NEED him not to.  Now, it is during this pandemic.  I cringe even when I walk him down the sidewalk - I REALLY do not want to walk him to the vet.  Virus on the sidewalk, from passer-byes, from people and pets at the vet.  And just when I am trying to find a day to go shopping - after which, my CFS requires me to rest for a week.

I don't know how urgent this is.  Maybe it is a cancer.  Maybe it is inflammation due to him scratching it - which he doesn't do much.  I hugged him after I saw it.  Always, this pain keeps following me, grabbing at my heals, and there it goes - another loss.  Another lost life and love all for the want of time.
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