where hypotheses come to die (madman101) wrote,
where hypotheses come to die

Day 2: 'Silly'

Day 2

“The virtue in most request is conformity.” ―Emerson

“People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.” ―Joseph Campbell

Where do you find the most meaning in life and feel the most fully alive? Is there something you’d love to do but don’t because the world thinks it’s silly or worthless or wrong? Is there anything you do that you consider virtuous yet the world looks down on? How do you handle the tension?

madman101: First of all, I do not understand the grammer of the first quote.  I am sorry if that makes me an upstart.  Regarding the second quote, I personally seek both.  Nothing wrong with that.  I think Campbell is right about most people.  But there are some baneful exceptionals who just want to go a little bridge too far, ya know?

Huhhhh...  I feel the most fully alive when I am dreaming.  That is so true I don't even consider it ironic.  Got a problem with dreams, huh, bitch?!

Something 'silly' I'd love to do?....  IDK.  I don't even think in thse terms, I guess.  So - let me tell you this...

When I was a boyhood boy, I acted like my older sisters, having no solid male role model.  I would laugh at things on TV, even though I deserved not to.  I would make jokes.  My father would pronounce that I was acting, "SILLY!"  Honestly, since 'silly' was so much of my overall composure, I really didn't know what he was talking about.  So, I had no idea where to start, even if I had wanted to ever ' correct' myself.

He also called me, "Twisted,".... and... "No son of mine!"... so... yeah.  Eventually you get to the point of, yay, WHO NEEDS THIS CRAP.

"Is there anything you do that you consider virtuous yet the world looks down on? How do you handle the tension?" - Well, that's kinda the story of my life.  Part of it comes from what I have learnt in all my deep searches and studies.  Some of it comes from my Catholic background, and family.  But it really does feel like almost everything I do is something no one understands, for ascribed reasons.  A relevant example: I shovel snow ALL AROUND THIS HOUSE, which is a lot of area.  I do this because it should be done and be done with!  Caring about passing pedestrians is just something YOU DO.  Virtue my ass - it is so beyond virtue it is inane.  Inevitably, certain neighbours rush in to blame me, or to compete with me, over this.  They are based on some kind of ethic where IMPRESSION or SELF-IMPORTANCE are the rules of the game.  Seriously: All my life, I have felt like I am living on an alien planet where everyone is retarded.  RETARDED!  It's a WORD!

How do I handle the tension?  Pfffft.  Actually, I have more serious tensions to deal with, like CFS.  Maybe if I were well, I would deal with these tensions in a far more normal way, like mass shootings.

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