I have been seriously ill, with various headaches, extreme fatigue, and the worst cognitive problems I've had in a while. CFS dementia, is what it is. I could barely walk without falling into the walls. Actually, I have been spending most of my time not walking. Getting up is like getting off a speeding merry-go-round. I was able to watch the movie "Contact" last night. After so many times of never making my way through it. But this time I liked it more. But it kept me up until at least 1:30am. I got up again at 4:am to let the dog out, and I was a complete wreck. When things are this bad it seems just completely obvious that there is no future for my life. I'm just lucky not to be dead.
This year, I resolve not to die.
I'm really unable to put together any great posts. Had an idea for another one: The bizarre weirdness of male sexuality. It will start with this odd quote I heard from a main NPR anchor woman: "American women are loosing interest in nasty men..." Ha, yeah. And - it's almost 2018, & I still haven't written and posted my xmas letter to friends and relatives. That's pretty sad.
I haven't been allowing my dog to eat much turkey lately. In fact, I have deprived him of a few small meals and cookies until he shapes up. He eats too much and gets too many calories in him and gets out of control. This is what the last turkey did to him. Now, when I run him out front, he constantly pulls off, throwing me off, and it gets impossible to get his exercising accomplished. There is a social reason why this has been happening too - neighbours - I'll write about that later. Anyway, he finally did well running today, and we have been sweet peas in a pod all day, despite me being otherwise invalid.
However, the point is this: Turkey calories have also been feeding my dementia. So, I too have been eating less of it, and of everything. It is weird how, the day after xmas, all the holiday spirit seems to evapourate. However, this evening, the oldies station replayed a countdown show of all the best xmas songs. Still not well recovered, I bothered to heat up some turkey, stuffing, potatoes and gravy, and had a nice xmas dinner, to xmas music, with doggie in a good mood, and a vast dry moat of sheer windchill keeping bothersome others away from this abode.
I have to finish off this food - potatoes are already 6 days old and that's not a good thing. I've barely even started on them. Along with the turkey and massive amounts of stuffing, there are still several burritos calling out for a new home in someone's stomach. I think I will post a few notes about cooking lately soon. or soon lately.
I have no choice but to dawdle - so the most I could do today was listen to comfort music, and set some songs into playlists. Right now, I am back to the Cranberries. 4 albums, but the one seeming most relevant to the times right now is TO THE FAITHFUL DEPARTED. One playlist is for my LJ - if I can relearn how to post mx here, and if that's still technically possible. Probably not. I already have way way too many songs in this list to fit on a CD, which is all I want. I ended up adding songs which "make me who I am"... It is amazing how many came from Belly - 11 - and that doesn't even include Muses, Breeders or Pixies.
So, do you know if LastFM, or whatever, is a good free or cheap place to store music, (and then link that to my LJ)? Any suggestions? It's been a while since I looked into music sites, since I am on dial-up and music doesn't stream for shit. With or without a paddle.