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Life is Buttah Dream

Posted on 2017.12.31 at 21:10
I have an idea for another book - satyrical. One brief reference in it will be the falling ball in NYC on NYE. Certain people will consider it an annual ritual of the descending testicle.

I have been seriously ill, with various headaches, extreme fatigue, and the worst cognitive problems I've had in a while. CFS dementia, is what it is. I could barely walk without falling into the walls. Actually, I have been spending most of my time not walking. Getting up is like getting off a speeding merry-go-round. I was able to watch the movie "Contact" last night. After so many times of never making my way through it. But this time I liked it more. But it kept me up until at least 1:30am. I got up again at 4:am to let the dog out, and I was a complete wreck. When things are this bad it seems just completely obvious that there is no future for my life. I'm just lucky not to be dead.

This year, I resolve not to die.

I'm really unable to put together any great posts. Had an idea for another one: The bizarre weirdness of male sexuality. It will start with this odd quote I heard from a main NPR anchor woman: "American women are loosing interest in nasty men..." Ha, yeah. And - it's almost 2018, & I still haven't written and posted my xmas letter to friends and relatives. That's pretty sad.

I haven't been allowing my dog to eat much turkey lately. In fact, I have deprived him of a few small meals and cookies until he shapes up. He eats too much and gets too many calories in him and gets out of control. This is what the last turkey did to him. Now, when I run him out front, he constantly pulls off, throwing me off, and it gets impossible to get his exercising accomplished. There is a social reason why this has been happening too - neighbours - I'll write about that later. Anyway, he finally did well running today, and we have been sweet peas in a pod all day, despite me being otherwise invalid.

However, the point is this: Turkey calories have also been feeding my dementia. So, I too have been eating less of it, and of everything. It is weird how, the day after xmas, all the holiday spirit seems to evapourate. However, this evening, the oldies station replayed a countdown show of all the best xmas songs. Still not well recovered, I bothered to heat up some turkey, stuffing, potatoes and gravy, and had a nice xmas dinner, to xmas music, with doggie in a good mood, and a vast dry moat of sheer windchill keeping bothersome others away from this abode.

I have to finish off this food - potatoes are already 6 days old and that's not a good thing. I've barely even started on them. Along with the turkey and massive amounts of stuffing, there are still several burritos calling out for a new home in someone's stomach. I think I will post a few notes about cooking lately soon. or soon lately.

I have no choice but to dawdle - so the most I could do today was listen to comfort music, and set some songs into playlists. Right now, I am back to the Cranberries. 4 albums, but the one seeming most relevant to the times right now is TO THE FAITHFUL DEPARTED. One playlist is for my LJ - if I can relearn how to post mx here, and if that's still technically possible. Probably not. I already have way way too many songs in this list to fit on a CD, which is all I want. I ended up adding songs which "make me who I am"... It is amazing how many came from Belly - 11 - and that doesn't even include Muses, Breeders or Pixies.

So, do you know if LastFM, or whatever, is a good free or cheap place to store music, (and then link that to my LJ)? Any suggestions? It's been a while since I looked into music sites, since I am on dial-up and music doesn't stream for shit. With or without a paddle.


meowmensteen at 2018-01-01 03:54 (UTC) (Lien)
I remember the last time I watched Contact. I was in Texas visiting my Grandparents with my ten-month-old baby... that was a while ago. It was hard to sleep in that creepy old house, so I stayed up late one night watching tv and that movie came on. Then when I came home I read the book, which I liked better than the movie.

I had a best friend in middle school. Her name was Ioanna (pronounced you-wanna) We both religiously listened to The Cranberries pretty much for the whole duration of our friendship. My favorite part of all their work was the last part of the album "There's No Need to Argue". It was about as manic depressive as your average 13-year-old... which was how old I was when I got that album. Ionanna and I stopped being friends my freshman year of high school, and I stopped listening to The Cranberries even though I was the one that got her into them. She got me into Elastica. Remember them?

Honestly I've never even used LastFM. I have no idea. My favorite music site right now is bandcamp.com. It's pretty indie though, I'm not sure if there's a lot of well known music there. I did find this free downloadable Pixies concert there though. https://planetclaire.bandcamp.com/album/pixies-live-at-bataclan-1989-06-07
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madman101 at 2018-01-01 05:57 (UTC) (Lien)
It's a good late-night movie. I was thinking the book would prolly be better. And I was thinking that Sagan's book would be less religion-like. On the other hand, some things I don't like about the movie are prolly due to the book - idk.

I love that you were really into Cranberries. I can see it.

I'm listening to "No Need to Argue" now - it follows "Everybody Else is Doing it" on my CD. They really eat my soul. I always loved them cuz they were indie / pop / Irish / intimate / punk / goth! And progressive! That's right in the middle of my demographics. Plus I wish I was a 16 year old girl painting my toenails black again.

I am forever referencing "War Child" or "Zombie" etc. in my jnl. I'm also a major fan of Yeats, John Lennon and coffee! I don't listen to them I CHANNEL them, lol.

I hated Elastica, lol - really. But I never listened to a full album or anything, so.

Thanks for the links - I'll also grab your Gizzard Lizzard album. I've actually heard of them, but don't remember their sound.

I think I also heard of Planet Claire, for some reason. I think it is odd that you use Planet Claire, and you make eux claires, and your daughter is Claire... and you live in Seattle which also has an E and an A and an L in it.

here's something i found a little while ago - http://eil.com/ - maybe you'll like it

I always thought O'Riordan sounded like Natalie Merchant at the end of "Ridiculous Thoughts" which is also a ridiculous thought.
meowmensteen at 2018-01-03 00:30 (UTC) (Lien)
I bet you didn't know this, but I also have a sister named Claire. I was a weird idiot when I was 20 and named my kid after my sister. I also have a friend named Clare. She doesn't use an i in her name. I have to use a lot of pet names in my life, because anytime I say Claire, about two or more people say what? and then I have to say, no the other Claire. I still think it's an awesome name. Alice being a close second. I wish I knew an Alice. Ever

Thanks for the link. I'll have to check that site out.
birdandfox at 2018-01-02 03:43 (UTC) (Lien)
I'm sorry you've been feeling so awful lately. I don't know how I'd handle that. It takes gumption.
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