March 7th, 2020

  • geri

I DEFIED DEATH 4 TIMES.

I HAD IN JESTED TO MUCH CO2 BY USING MY STOVE TO WARM UP MY APARTMENT LONG STORY SHORT I HAVE SLEEP APNEA C.O.P.D ASTHMA AND INSOMIA ALL COLLIDED ON DECEMBER 10 AT 5:30 AM MY CAT GRAY KNOCKED MY TEA OVER SO THE PLAN WAS TO TAKE A SHOWER AND WAIT FOR A LIL WHILE YOU KNOW SO THAT MY PORES CLOSE UP. ANYWAY ONCE THE WATER HIT MY HIT MY HEAD I FELT CLAUSTROPHOBIC ALL AT ONCE I SAT ON THE TOILET TRYING TO DO THIS TRICK MY DR TAUGHT ME MIND OVER MATTER LET'S JUST SAY IT WAS NOT HELPING I OPEN THE DOOR AND RAN TO THE KITCHEN WINDOW. OPENING THE WINDOW I COULDN'T GET NO AIR I TURN TO GO BACK BUT FELL BETWEEN THE STOVE AND THE TABLE SCREAMING I THINK I TOOK ALL TWENTY YEARS OF OFF OF MY GIRLS LIVES BUT I WAS COHERENT ENOUGH TO TELL HER I WANTED SOME CLOTHES ON. SO NOW THEY CALL EMS IT TOOK TEN OF THE EMS PEOPLE TO HOLD ME TOGETHER I WAS LIKE MELTED BUTTER ALL OVER THE DAMN PLACE. I KEPT DOING A HOUDINI ACT COMING OUT OF THE STRAPS I DAMN NEAR GAVE ONE OF THEM A HEART ATTACK BECAUSE HE STRAPPED ME IN AND NEXT TIME HE SAW ME MY FACE WAS NEXT TO HIS SCREAMING I CAN'T BREATHE HE ALMOST FELL NO I'M NOT MAKING LITE OF THE SITUATION BUT THIS IS HOW BAD I WAS IN MY MIND I WAS DIAGNOSING MYSELF TELLING THEM MY LUNGS ARE COLLAPSING IT WAS A MESS FINALLY WHERE ON OUR WAY ONLY ONE DAUGHTER COULD GO WITH ME WE GET TO THE HOSPITAL I WAS STILL FIGHTING THEM DON'T ASK ME WHY ALL I KNOW WAS I KEPT SAYING I NEED AIR ALL THAT SCREAMING AND IT NEVER OCCUR TO ME I WAS USING UP MY AIR I DIGRESS THEY TRIED TO PUT ME IN A SEMI INDUCED COMA I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT I WOKE MYSELF UP FROM IT YELLING AT THEM I THINK I SCARED THE DAMN DR MIGHT GIVE UP THE PROFESSION SO THEY TIED ME DOWN AGAIN I DID A HOUDINI AND CAME OUT OF THEM FINALLY MY LUNGS JUST STOPPED AND IN MY HEAD I'M SCREAMING I NEED AIR IT HAPPENED AGAIN I FLATLINED INSIDE MY HEAD AGAIN SCREAMING I NEED AIR! SO NOW THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ME THEY SENT ME TO ICE PUMPED ME FULL OF A KNOCK OUT DRUG SO NOW I'M CALM AND RESTING NOW IN MY HEAD I'M DREAMING MY MOM IS SAYING WE'RE NOT READY FOR YOU I'M UNCONSCISCIENE AT THIS POINT REMEMBER THE DRUGS THEY PUMPED ME UP WITH ANYWAY IN MY DREAM AFTER MY MOM SAID THAT TO ME I PICK MY RIGHT HAND UP AND STARTED PULLING THE TUBE OUT OF MY MOUTH I SCARED THOSE DOCTORS AS WELL NO ONE DARED TOUCHED ME BECAUSE I WAS SLEEPING THE TUBE GOT CAUGHT IN MY MOUTH THAT'S WHAT WOKE ME UP AND ALL THE DR'S WERE LOOKING AT ME LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST DO??? I'M LOOKING AT THEM LIKE THEY ARE CRAZY BECAUSE I JUST WOKE I DON'T REMEMBER PULLING THE TUBS OUT. SO LATER ON WHEN THE DR'S MADE THEIR ROUNDS THEY ALL EXAMINED ME MY HEART RATE WAS VERY SLOW FOR THEIR LIKING AND MY BREATHING WAS FOR SHIT I NEEDED OXYGEN THEY HAD TO INCUBATE ME FOR A FEW DAYS I HATED IT BUT WHAT CAN YOU DO WHEN YOUR LIFE IS IN THERE HANDS I APPRECIATE EVERY LAST ONE OF MY DR'S I WILL LOVE THEM FOR LIFE. SO THIS IS WHY I WAS OFF LJ AND FB AND ALL OF MY OTHER SITES FOR 2 WEEKS.
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